tinkerbitchx's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- backstabbing me constantly I haven't done any drugs or consumed alcohol in five days. My boyfriend doesn't believe me, how pleasant. My paranoia served me correctly, as feared. I asked Jason if he had been thinking about breaking it off / taking a break in the past couple of weeks. His answer? "Not exactly.." and he didn't answer like I had hoped, which would be no and such. So I said "Honestly, you haven't?" Then he admitted, etc etc. I got upset and told him I had to go. I haven't thought about the situation, or him for that matter, all day. I went to school today. Stayed until around 11:30 and picked up some lunch (onion rings & a cherry float thing) from Burger King. I picked up Jamie from work because she called me on my cell phone. I took her to her parents house and she picked up some of her things, and we came home and watched some soaps. I didn't even go to classes when I went to school. I finished my midterm (World History) which is like 2 weeks late. I bullshitted my way through the whole thing. Then I did a lot of writing. For my sake, not yours, I'll share a little bit. Not Strapped In Hiding beneath the matresses She's not shy or plotting my demise She's just stuck The way she crawls Underneath my skin So that I don't feel it I breathe it Well, it's more comforting than dripping mascara Low Radiation I've been waiting for your call forever It's like having a happy dagger strike at my chest This dagger is relentless And never stabs in the same place It's my equalizer between distance, lies, and reality 3:15 PM - October 22, 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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