tinkerbitchx's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- the downside of up music : stp - sour girl And so it happens. That feeling of remourse clouding up my day. I'm sick and tired of feeling like this. Get over it. I wish I could. It's so simple to say, but terrifying to do. These emotions come with a rhythm and I think will eventually be the end of me. I have a feeling Jason wants to break up with me or go on break. I have that "heart jumping out of my throat" feeling. Which always means one thing, the end. Destruction, complete wreaking of havoc. And I don't like it. Even though I know he loves me I don't know if he kind handle what I put him through. I don't know if I would even want to go on living without him, honestly. See, dependency gets me nowhere. And I keep poisioning our relationship because I never let wounds heal. he is my drug. 11:50 AM - October 19, 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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