tinkerbitchx's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- cause me to unravel I'll destroy my mind until about three. After that it's all up to the moon. I don't get a bit of sleep until morning comes. And by that time I'm once again stung by the bee of reality. It starts to hurt as it starts to swell. So once again I go lie about it, to myself. I'll wear a sweater, I'll clean my face. I don't need to be questioned about dripping mascara today. Pretending to forget the scars I put upon me I walk into the party, loudly, wreckless. Another night light this is all just the same. I take a few bites of what's there. I was starving, but then my mind began to race. I grabbed my purse and headed towards the bathroom. I lied to them 'I can't hold it' but to me it made sense. I couldn't hold down the food without feeling so dirty. And with that it was time to go home. To sit all alone, with all the worries and the screams. I cried all night and wondered what it was to dream. 4:56 PM - December 19, 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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