tinkerbitchx's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- away and on I think I've realized there was nothing extra extortionary about him. He's just a guy. Nothing more than that. I don't feel his words fuel my need to have him anymore. I don't have a sense that everything is different with him. He's just there. Somebody else that I talk to. Nothing supremely significant about him. Nothing worth giving a second thought about. He doesn't change the way I am, and by no means could he ever complete me. Nothing or no one can complete me. I guess I was trapped in a fantasy world where things just didn't look the way they do now. It's deeply saddening, though. I liked having something so out of reach but still so badly and literally sometimes hurting for it. I guess it's my search for the unattainable that lead me to that feeling. There's no allure, there's no need nor want, there's nothing. It's over now. 4:11 pm - 03-29-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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